So hard to believe that another year is gone! I feel so old saying things like that but this past year has flown by but as I sit back and reflect, I am very happy with where my life has taken me. What a year its been but my most favorite memory was made tonight, just a little while ago. For years we have just foregone the fireworks on New Years and Fourth of July both, much to my husband’s dismay. This year, Victoria showed some interest in fireworks around July so Lance promised her we would get some. We just figured Logan would stay indoors or I would stay with him. So we got ready to start and Logan got very excited, jumping around and jabbering all over the place. A long time ago, we just learned to take things slow where Logan was concernced. We always at least try and see where it gets us. Well, I have to say, he certainly surprised us tonight. He stayed attentive, and watched and participated the whole time. We did have a small meltdown, but it was because his dad told him we were going to eat dinner then finish the fireworks. Momma couldnt take it, so I took him back out. It was amazing. Even the loud ones that made me jump, all he did was cover his ears, then laugh and ask for more. It made my heart soar to watch my little boy experience true joy.
We have now been on the drug trial for 3 weeks. Today is the first day Lance and I both have noticed a big difference. Its so hard to say whether its the drug or just him growing up. We both noticed today that he appeared more alert and more little boy like, not like a little boy affected by Fragile X.
After the fireworks, 2 of the neighbor kids came over and Logan and Victoria went in the front yard and played. Logan played! He even played Duck Duck Goose. He knew how to play and when it was his turn to be it, he put his hand on one of the boys head and said “goose”.
Sometimes, I feel like we are searching so hard and wishing so hard for those “perfect” moments, those “normal” moments in our lives and I realize that they are always right there in front of us.
One of my 2012 Resolutions is never ever take a single thing, or a single day for granted when it comes to my kids.
I hope everyone has a Happy New Year and I for one, am looking forward to the New Year and all the promise that it holds. I am not an optimist by nature, but I could find myself becoming one!